Landscape of the Heart

"It is still so new and all we see is the empty space,

but that is not how it is in the landscape of the heart

There, there is no empty space

and he still laughs and grapples with ideas and plans

and now wisely with each of us in turn.

We are proud to have known him.

We are proud to have called him friend"

- Brian Andreas

I miss him soo much.

I hope I am making you proud Dad, you are in my every thought...

I am a lighthouse

I am a light house

Worn by the weather and the rain

I keep my lamp lit

To warn the sailors on there way

I tell a story

Paint you a picture from my past

- The Lighthouse's Tale

Nickel Creek

My time in Maine is passing by so fast.

I am not sure where I want to take my life after this....

Do I do something that I love and risk living a life in constant movement

Or do I break down and get a normal teaching job and be constricted to a class room and tests?

The field I have chosen is fun and exciting, but very hard to make a career out of

Everything is seasonal.

Choices

- Stay at the Leadership school / Wavus girls camp going back and forth with not a lot of stability

- Go back to Pendy, a place that I love and cherish, but teach the same classes over and over

- Hope I get a job a Chewonki a wonderful environmental education camp down the road

- Apply to ETAP grad program and live in Portland and take classes

- Do something that I haven't discovered yet!

I love the people, the area and everything that they teach here,

But the politics of this place are starting to wear on me.

I will be back in Michigan for 3 months in the winter,

And somewhat looking forward to some time off.

But 3 months is a long time to sit still!!!

I do believe that traveling is going to happen,

Just got to figure out where I am going.

Overall life is good, can't compline,

I have at least 2 jobs, both of them I love!

I need to stay in contact with friends I have left better,

There are some letters that need to get sent out now (sorry Jory!!!!)

And phone calls to make!!!

I miss everyone so much!

(Including the cats....:( )